Nov. 20th, 2004
What did I do to deserve this..? -_-
Nov. 20th, 2004 10:07 pmToday WAS going well, until my mom just had to rub some more facts in my face.. Basically her own way of saying how pathetic I am and going nowhere -_-
Dammit, why is it that everything I do seems pointless to her? Why is it that she never truly understands how I feel? What makes me so hard to understand? Why is everything my fault?
That's pretty much how my whole life has been: I get in the way somehow then I'm the one to be blamed for everyone's failure as well as my own. I can't fulfill my own happiness, because I'm always hurting somebody else's. Yet no matter what, I can't seem to payback everything that I've done. I can't explain how sorry I am, for everything. No matter how hard I try.
... I need a hug now... Or something =(
Dammit, why is it that everything I do seems pointless to her? Why is it that she never truly understands how I feel? What makes me so hard to understand? Why is everything my fault?
That's pretty much how my whole life has been: I get in the way somehow then I'm the one to be blamed for everyone's failure as well as my own. I can't fulfill my own happiness, because I'm always hurting somebody else's. Yet no matter what, I can't seem to payback everything that I've done. I can't explain how sorry I am, for everything. No matter how hard I try.
... I need a hug now... Or something =(