*Le sigh*

[grifstar]

It's happening again~~~~ D:



I've just been so.... out of it today. Was feeling the same thing last night too(hell I even went to bed way sooner than what I normally do and laid there until 1 today x_x). Not really sure why, other than I think I'm getting into one of my depression moods and I don't feel like doing anything -.-;


I swear though, why is it EVERY time I start something, doesn't matter what the thing is, I get a few good complments and cheers here and there and then poof, it all goes away. I can't get anybody to talk to me, I can't get anyone back on track. It suddenly becomes yesterday's news and no one gives a shit about it anymore..... and then I wonder why the hell I even bothered wasting my breath about it in the first place -.-;;


I mean... the hell? Is everything I do just THAT horrible that everyone has to basically be an ass about it and not tell me up front it's a bad idea? That suddenly I got to talk to brick walls everyday because not a single soul has anything important to say back?


*sulks back into the unmotivated corner* >.>;;

Comments

[grifstar.livejournal.com]

well okay, THAT part I can understand. I sort of have that problem too x_x. (but I'm on break right now, so I don't have to worry)


Still, most people don't even bother giving a straight answer. All I ever get back is just pure silence most of the time, to almost always. I would be more happier if somebody told me that they hated my guts and wanted to murder me in my sleep than absolutely nothing. Which is what I'm getting basically. -.-;

[hagane-no.livejournal.com]

I admit that there have been a couple times that I felt annoyed at you for various things... I think the one time that comes to mind most is when we were all playing on Euph RO and you wanted me and Ari to not play on Ed and Hei, since you wanted to wait for Shindou to catch up and didn't want us to leave you behind. But that's no where near wanting to murder you in your sleep or hating your guts.

I'm on break right now, too... but I know the RP would go on longer than the break would last, so it's better not to start than to have to quit later on. It's like smoking (only less painful).

[grifstar.livejournal.com]

heh... sowies about that ^^;;;;;. Course it didn't help either that at the time I had no idea what was up with her, and basically was stuck between a rock and a hard place. Since I wanted to spend time with her, AND I wanted to be with all of you D:

And of course it wasn't long after that I stopped seeing Shindou all together... Freakin' bastard. Really depressed she had to pull that on me, at the same time pissed because we were friends for a pretty long time and was the ONLY actual friend I had last year >__>


But true that.. though knowing my luck, probably won't be very active anyway in general. Even at the beginning x_x