Another weekend wasted, w00!
Oct. 31st, 2004 07:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
grifstar"I'm leaving to a party soon, but I had a big entry I wanted to write, so I'll edit this later, since I'm not sure when I'll be back and this might be my only time for it..."
EDIT: I is back, hurrah ^_^
Once again I envy those who are older. And I guess if you want to put it in blunt words, lonely that I can't find somebody my age that I can even relate to(IRL anyway). Instead I have to be with my brother's/sister's groups since they have more common sense since they actually act their age. Which makes me act like a leech, can't make my own "friendship", so I have to somewhat steal others.
I just hate it how in those situations I'm just the newbie that doesn't know anything. That I have to PROVE I know what I'm doing. And then I either turn it to an obession, or just look plain stupid and attention deprived. Like the damn fantasy club for example. I probably have more knowledge on anime and gaming than half of those people there. Well, maybe not stuff like first-shooters and D&D, but a good amount I know, or at least heard and know some about. I really hate big crowds though. I was hoping I could find some people I could relate so, atleast some.. However instead it's more like trying to my life story and interests to everyone that you won't see probably again.. Heck, my whole freakin' school year has been like that so far, it's pissing me off.
I keep wishing for that damn club to get smaller. Afterschool days are awesome though, I hope that there will be more, otherwise I can kiss bringing anime to school goodbye. I don't want a bunch of rabid monkeys to wreck my cds. I put lots of time into finding my anime, and I'll have to personally destory anyone that messes them up. So, yeah.. Gonna see if I can make afterschool marathon days. That way people who REALLY want to watch them can.. My first pick probably is gonna be FMA, my democray of having people decide what to do first is getting nowhere, so time to bring in monarchy, huzrah.
Now then.. in not so rantish moods, I got more eventful items on Gaia than I imagined to have in a lifetime o.o. Damn zombie/human thing was becoming a pain in the ass though, but I got all that I want in the last second possible, except a labcoat... Oh well..
EDIT: I is back, hurrah ^_^
Once again I envy those who are older. And I guess if you want to put it in blunt words, lonely that I can't find somebody my age that I can even relate to(IRL anyway). Instead I have to be with my brother's/sister's groups since they have more common sense since they actually act their age. Which makes me act like a leech, can't make my own "friendship", so I have to somewhat steal others.
I just hate it how in those situations I'm just the newbie that doesn't know anything. That I have to PROVE I know what I'm doing. And then I either turn it to an obession, or just look plain stupid and attention deprived. Like the damn fantasy club for example. I probably have more knowledge on anime and gaming than half of those people there. Well, maybe not stuff like first-shooters and D&D, but a good amount I know, or at least heard and know some about. I really hate big crowds though. I was hoping I could find some people I could relate so, atleast some.. However instead it's more like trying to my life story and interests to everyone that you won't see probably again.. Heck, my whole freakin' school year has been like that so far, it's pissing me off.
I keep wishing for that damn club to get smaller. Afterschool days are awesome though, I hope that there will be more, otherwise I can kiss bringing anime to school goodbye. I don't want a bunch of rabid monkeys to wreck my cds. I put lots of time into finding my anime, and I'll have to personally destory anyone that messes them up. So, yeah.. Gonna see if I can make afterschool marathon days. That way people who REALLY want to watch them can.. My first pick probably is gonna be FMA, my democray of having people decide what to do first is getting nowhere, so time to bring in monarchy, huzrah.
Now then.. in not so rantish moods, I got more eventful items on Gaia than I imagined to have in a lifetime o.o. Damn zombie/human thing was becoming a pain in the ass though, but I got all that I want in the last second possible, except a labcoat... Oh well..
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Date: 2004-11-01 06:06 pm (UTC)