Hrm, yes, indeed.

[grifstar]

Lately I been somewhat things of plans to... well.. make my life better.

Issue Number One: The con that I wish to attend.. It's probably one of the biggest 'risks' I ever tried to pull off. But I dead serious about it. I had just a few ideas of how to convince people to let me go, and I gonna try whatever it takes even if it kills myself.

Issue Number Two: Money. Currently I don't 'really' have any money coming in... save for... erm.. leftover lunch money (hey, I don't eat much ^^;). Which isn't gonna pull me throughout all my life. I been hoping to get a job, actually for the last few months actually. And it's always because of 'little' things: No car/way of transferring, too young, not enough "people" skills, school gets in the way, not hiring, etc.

Actually recently I was told that I should work at this fabric store that sits only a few blocks from us, about 15-30min walk from where I live. I actually really like this idea.. Better than working at some drug store or an awful fast food place. So I'm gonna look more into that.

Issue Number Three: Driving. Currently I still have my driving phobia(though I must admit it's getting better now). Which many seem to fail at comprehending what that means.. it doesn't mean I HATE driving, or choosing NOT TO drive for that I'm possibly LAZY or SPOILED as which, many seem to think.. and call me... It's because I'm AFRAID to. There? Happy now? Does that make EVERYONE feel better?

Dammit, why does everyone keep thinking it's my fault and that I just simply hate it out of laziness? Do people that fear heights simply choose to do so? Do....


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dammit.. I'm just going to start crying so I'm just going to shut up for now.. >< ...

Comments

[zrana.livejournal.com]

Hell, I didn't get my driver's license until I was 23 (and a half! =D) so I know where's you're coming from on that. My dad kept wanting me to learn, but I did NOT want to learn from a guy who made me reach across from the passenger's side to grab the steering wheel. I was paranoid I'd run into stuff, or worse, others would run into me.

Last summer before my senior highschool year, I decided to finally take driver's ed when I got the flyer in the mail about it. I had gotten a flyer the previous two years, so I was expecting it again. I didn't get one. So thus my learning to drive in an atmosphere I thought I could tolerate was postponed.

Then I moved out of my parents for a couple years. My schedule of free time conflicted with those qualified to take me out to practice (I managed to at least get my learner's permit), although I had plenty of free time with my friends. But, being 18 (or older) meant I had to have a 21 years or older person in the car. Um, I'm the one who's about a year older than all my friends. -_-;;

I loved my bike. It got stolen by the end of my first winter with a driver's license though. (I got my lisence last january... um.. 2004 that is. Snows went away and took my bike with them. ;_; )

[dragontrap.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Ototo we'll figure out something for issue one

Issue 2: That would so totally rock XD!!

Issue 3: I was scared of driving at first, but you get used to it after a while ^^