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The irony of names..
Mar. 13th, 2005 11:23 pmI probably should have gone to bed like... *checks clock* half an hour ago. But I haven't.. I got wound up, heh.
I am sorry for the randomness crack stuff I need plaguing this journal with lately. Heh, I just been just too hyper and krazi for my own good, lol.
Anyways. I almost feeling like closing this chapter. Indeed, I am. Don't really feel like being in my Demon Wings stage anymore. I still find it strangely ironic how that name fitted this time period.
I had the reason of why I named it that in DS.. until Freepgs kicked me out, damn them >_>. Distorted Shadow is another funny name that gained meaning too.
I guess to start it off from the beginning. I made a blog so that I could just rant and complain about the world and how it lives in black and white. And to get other thoughts across. That was why I wanted a blog, basically. Also I thought it might be interesting to see how I have changed over time. And then there was my "personal" problems going on at the time too. When I felt like my life was just spiraling down an awful loop and getting worse each time around. That's when I first noticed my... changes... Didn't know what to make of myself anymore. Just caught in some grey area. Everything I thought about or said never came out as to what I really felt. Still have that problem today. But it isn't as bad now. And also that was when I started that feel of neglection.. ah, fun times -_-. Such such fun times. Feeling like everyone is better than you, and that because of it that you become the bottom feeder that no one wants to look at. Bah.
So yeah, connect the dots and the name DS seems fitting, no? Funny since to be honest I was just playing with words when I made it.
And now we gots 2nd Chapter: Demon Wings. More me meltdowns, yey ^_^! ... gah... I really don't want to bother with that >_<. Anyway, DW was sorta like my metaphorical way of referring my IRL getting tied up with my internet life(and vice versa), and trying to fill the gap inbetween. Which actually did happen a few times in this period. But to make people understand it more why that name was used I would have to Grif's origin (again >_>), but it would take too long.
Meh, I must sleep now before I end up passing out on the keyboard or something.. -_-
I am sorry for the randomness crack stuff I need plaguing this journal with lately. Heh, I just been just too hyper and krazi for my own good, lol.
Anyways. I almost feeling like closing this chapter. Indeed, I am. Don't really feel like being in my Demon Wings stage anymore. I still find it strangely ironic how that name fitted this time period.
I had the reason of why I named it that in DS.. until Freepgs kicked me out, damn them >_>. Distorted Shadow is another funny name that gained meaning too.
I guess to start it off from the beginning. I made a blog so that I could just rant and complain about the world and how it lives in black and white. And to get other thoughts across. That was why I wanted a blog, basically. Also I thought it might be interesting to see how I have changed over time. And then there was my "personal" problems going on at the time too. When I felt like my life was just spiraling down an awful loop and getting worse each time around. That's when I first noticed my... changes... Didn't know what to make of myself anymore. Just caught in some grey area. Everything I thought about or said never came out as to what I really felt. Still have that problem today. But it isn't as bad now. And also that was when I started that feel of neglection.. ah, fun times -_-. Such such fun times. Feeling like everyone is better than you, and that because of it that you become the bottom feeder that no one wants to look at. Bah.
So yeah, connect the dots and the name DS seems fitting, no? Funny since to be honest I was just playing with words when I made it.
And now we gots 2nd Chapter: Demon Wings. More me meltdowns, yey ^_^! ... gah... I really don't want to bother with that >_<. Anyway, DW was sorta like my metaphorical way of referring my IRL getting tied up with my internet life(and vice versa), and trying to fill the gap inbetween. Which actually did happen a few times in this period. But to make people understand it more why that name was used I would have to Grif's origin (again >_>), but it would take too long.
Meh, I must sleep now before I end up passing out on the keyboard or something.. -_-
