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*twitch, twitch........ goes into overload*
Everyone take cover, cuz ranting Grif has been awakened and she ain't happy for the sudden wake up...
Alright *cracks fingers*, where to begin first..
I been a little unhappy with the CONSTANT pressure I been getting this last week (*pokes DT* Even you..), and now finally just want to get it out.
First off, San and Miz: I want you to get over the fact that I haven't been seeing you all that much. I DID warn before that it might happen, and it did. So bah, get over it. I grew very bored of it. You can only rant and rave about how messed up the world is for so long untill you just get sick of it. You better off just putting with it, cuz complaining doesn't get you anywhere. And/or thinking yourself as higher beings, more or less, because you take things literal and use less-used words almost as showing-off. I hate the as much of the world as you do, I hate stereotypes and people that have the common sense of a bactria, but I choose not to constantly think about it. Rather, I just want to enjoy the more simpler things and completely forget about it. If I have to live here, I might as well like it. Basically, I've just learned to accept it and just move on. Everything you see is a stereotype, when you least see it or not, you are both even ones yourselves but don't then reaise it.
DT(aka, 'RP' Nii-san): I have a life, believe it or not. I don't live alone in some apartment (or regnew.. *sweatdrop*) where I can do whatever I want, save for school stuff. So said so yourself one day that you can always have too much of a good thing, I probably hit my limit sometime back. Now I'm just burnt -_-. Don't get me wrong, I still really like the things we have been doing. It's just that I need breaks, and I can't stand staying somewhere for so long. And now it seems to be really effecting my IRL life too. Lately my daily schule(sp?) sleeping, RPing(and other online things), trying to sneak in a sack or so, and then RP till almost midnight and then being a zombie the next morning where the whole cycle gets washed, rinced, and repeated for the next day. Not much 'me time' in there is it? A day or so of no RPing isn't going to kill you, and I'm sure you won't have some angry mob about the community about a post being a day or so off time. But Ototo really wants vacation time to do other things sometimes.. I'm only human afterall, so I need breaks -_-. Plus I have IRL matters to attend to sometimes as well, which normally can't be helped.
Plus recently I been getting chewed out for things that I wished didn't existed.. which isn't making life much easier for me.
I don't mean to hurt anyone's feelings, but I just really want to get these things across before they turn into even bigger monsters... which maybe that has already happened >.>..
Alright *cracks fingers*, where to begin first..
I been a little unhappy with the CONSTANT pressure I been getting this last week (*pokes DT* Even you..), and now finally just want to get it out.
First off, San and Miz: I want you to get over the fact that I haven't been seeing you all that much. I DID warn before that it might happen, and it did. So bah, get over it. I grew very bored of it. You can only rant and rave about how messed up the world is for so long untill you just get sick of it. You better off just putting with it, cuz complaining doesn't get you anywhere. And/or thinking yourself as higher beings, more or less, because you take things literal and use less-used words almost as showing-off. I hate the as much of the world as you do, I hate stereotypes and people that have the common sense of a bactria, but I choose not to constantly think about it. Rather, I just want to enjoy the more simpler things and completely forget about it. If I have to live here, I might as well like it. Basically, I've just learned to accept it and just move on. Everything you see is a stereotype, when you least see it or not, you are both even ones yourselves but don't then reaise it.
DT(aka, 'RP' Nii-san): I have a life, believe it or not. I don't live alone in some apartment (or regnew.. *sweatdrop*) where I can do whatever I want, save for school stuff. So said so yourself one day that you can always have too much of a good thing, I probably hit my limit sometime back. Now I'm just burnt -_-. Don't get me wrong, I still really like the things we have been doing. It's just that I need breaks, and I can't stand staying somewhere for so long. And now it seems to be really effecting my IRL life too. Lately my daily schule(sp?) sleeping, RPing(and other online things), trying to sneak in a sack or so, and then RP till almost midnight and then being a zombie the next morning where the whole cycle gets washed, rinced, and repeated for the next day. Not much 'me time' in there is it? A day or so of no RPing isn't going to kill you, and I'm sure you won't have some angry mob about the community about a post being a day or so off time. But Ototo really wants vacation time to do other things sometimes.. I'm only human afterall, so I need breaks -_-. Plus I have IRL matters to attend to sometimes as well, which normally can't be helped.
Plus recently I been getting chewed out for things that I wished didn't existed.. which isn't making life much easier for me.
I don't mean to hurt anyone's feelings, but I just really want to get these things across before they turn into even bigger monsters... which maybe that has already happened >.>..
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I don't mind at all if you take your time with doing other things. That's just fine. It's that you are making an effort, it seems, to stop us from communicating with you, and then giving excuses such as "I've been busy".
And since some of the claims in your entry seem erroneous...
Have you noticed that I do not even rant very often about foolish people around me, or about stereotypes? Unless, of course, we've suddenly entered a time machine and gone back to 2003. Have we? I don't think we have. Resari might often rant about such things, but she has reason to. I simply don't.
Is using a larger vocabulary showing off and trying to make like I am a "higher being"? How can it be, when I use it even when no one is going to see it? It is my word choice, and nothing more. I don't understand where attacking word choice fits in here, did you have this problem two months ago? Six? A year?
Your reasons just don't make sense, especially not regarding me, since I simply do not do such things as you have accused.
Furthermore, if you DID have a problem with one or both of us, why did you not talk to us about it? Simple, doesn't it seem? Really. Much easier to find a resolution than absolutely ignoring someone.
Is this even the true problem? How can I be sure, if whenever you respond to a question about it, you reveal a new "actual" reason as to why you are avoiding us? First you were busy, then you felt like we were going different ways, and now you think we're annoying. What is the next layer of reasons, that a fairy in a dream told you that we hated you? You suddenly remembered a thing we said last October that annoyed you? No less illogical than the reasons you're already putting out.
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I’ve grown to accept this, am I particularly happy about your choice? In honestly, no… but my mule acted on behalf of curiosity and Liesk’s sake to be grave. I know I’m not the most splendid person to be associated with, but I’m caught within a cage that I can not alter, I’m afraid.
You mention these ‘little things’… those are what I lack, I have virtually nothing of content within the current world. You could simply reply back with “Well, find something and change it then!”… but I can’t; for one, I have no control over the people around me. You have your brother, at least… who do I have within [“real”] life that I can admire, love, or even like? No one. I’m aware of my low tolerance for people who refer to themselves as stereotypes… but you must realize that’s how I lost my first finger; the one I eradicated left for the reason of becoming a cliché. In addition, those who refer to themselves as virtually any stereotype are consistently irritating me and making unreasonable claims, lies, and rumors.
Alright, ‘get over it and move on’ you say… is tomorrow actually going to be any better? It’s improbable, even when I attempt to have a positive outlook and treat each day as ‘new’ something happens almost the moment I awaken to produce ruin. As long as I’m a “kid” I have virtually no control over my life – how can I raise my level of content in that circumstance? Perhaps I cavil quite a bit, but without releasing my thoughts occasionally I turn utterly wrathful and result in harming others when that wasn’t the intention I had at all…
My reasoning behind using slightly elevated terminology? Some of it’s simply affixed in my brain, and the remnant was acquired by the fact that I enjoy learning new vocabulary as it’s easier to express oneself and makes my writing less redundant by use of synonyms.
I cleanly wished to explain myself, again, as I mentioned on AIM – I can acknowledge the idea of wishing for a change and I quite comprehend ignoring me as I somewhat lack the ability to become a more positive individual... and probably don't provide enough 'care' in a friendship anymore... but Liesk did little, if anything, to deserve that.
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