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grifstarToday has been pretty much a continuous shit creek cycle.
Needless to say, I lost a job again. The Quiznos I was at finally went belly-up and is having to shut down, something I was afraid was going to happen(either that or whoever was going to buy it might change it to something else, or whatever). I really don't know what's going to happen now and there's nothing I can do at this point. Unless I get lucky and someone else locally is hiring, or my sister gets her damn car fixed so I can get my own back... Hopefully this might finally make her get off her socializing ass and do something about it. Getting sick and fucking tired that everytime she has a free moment she's gotta waste it by partying out with friends without a care in the world. >.>
Which relates to the next irritating topic of the day with my mom(who I REALLY didn't want to talk to today, although it saved me from having to write a painful e-mail about how I got laid-off today). The whole subject about how "I need to make more friends, get out more, blah blah fucking blah", when in all honestly I feel much happier the way I am now than I am trying to be something that I'm not. I like being with people, but I only like being with certain people that unfortunately don't exist anywhere close by. I'm not going to force myself to do things just because you want me to. Just because you have a whole different meaning of it all than I do.
The only reason why I feel lonely, depressed, moody, bitchy, and 50 other things at the moment is because I FUCKING LOST MY JOB. Tough thing to grasp, isn't it?
*sigh* This whole week is gonna be... ugh. I'm sensing more drama and pain. Wednesday MIGHT be an interesting day though.
Needless to say, I lost a job again. The Quiznos I was at finally went belly-up and is having to shut down, something I was afraid was going to happen(either that or whoever was going to buy it might change it to something else, or whatever). I really don't know what's going to happen now and there's nothing I can do at this point. Unless I get lucky and someone else locally is hiring, or my sister gets her damn car fixed so I can get my own back... Hopefully this might finally make her get off her socializing ass and do something about it. Getting sick and fucking tired that everytime she has a free moment she's gotta waste it by partying out with friends without a care in the world. >.>
Which relates to the next irritating topic of the day with my mom(who I REALLY didn't want to talk to today, although it saved me from having to write a painful e-mail about how I got laid-off today). The whole subject about how "I need to make more friends, get out more, blah blah fucking blah", when in all honestly I feel much happier the way I am now than I am trying to be something that I'm not. I like being with people, but I only like being with certain people that unfortunately don't exist anywhere close by. I'm not going to force myself to do things just because you want me to. Just because you have a whole different meaning of it all than I do.
The only reason why I feel lonely, depressed, moody, bitchy, and 50 other things at the moment is because I FUCKING LOST MY JOB. Tough thing to grasp, isn't it?
*sigh* This whole week is gonna be... ugh. I'm sensing more drama and pain. Wednesday MIGHT be an interesting day though.
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Date: 2009-01-20 04:43 am (UTC)I am sorry I feel the same way about socializing. Except my parents don't bug me about it, because they know I have a bunch of close friends, but I am basically like that in college. Because I can't be arsed to socialize. I know what it feels like, and I can say I sympathize with you.
If you are happy, be yourself :).
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Date: 2009-01-20 04:56 am (UTC)and be an RP fagthan go out and do anything else. It's.... funner for me.Either that, or I'm just too used to the fact everytime I go out and try to do some "socializing", I got completely forgotten about due to the people I'm supposed to be with is distracted by 50 over friends, and I just follow around bored out of my mind >.>
Which is no doubt the other reason why I don't seem to have long-lasting IRL friends.
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Date: 2009-01-20 05:02 am (UTC)As for hanging out well...depends on what you do. I honestly don't know what much to do when I hang out with people who don't share my hobbies (video games, books, silly stuff like that)... so why should I hang out with them lulz XP. When I hang out with the 'guys' as I call them, we generally do some multiplayer thing like mario party, or we just talk. I went to Toronto with 2 of them and we had no video game systems there, but I got drunk ( the only one >__>) and they basically played with me while i was drunk lulz. But we have such a good bond...
As for being ignored, meh well I feel like that when I go out with my roomate's friend. She belongs to a soriety, and i could care 2 shits about them. or about hot guys, or OMIGAWD GIRL STUFF. So I usually just sit there on my phone, talking to my love :3. It's fine by me, really. I just don't like most people my age, so close-minded and shit. I can keep up any conversation with an adult usually. you just have to find the right people ^^. Where do you live btw?