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grifstarToday has been pretty much a continuous shit creek cycle.
Needless to say, I lost a job again. The Quiznos I was at finally went belly-up and is having to shut down, something I was afraid was going to happen(either that or whoever was going to buy it might change it to something else, or whatever). I really don't know what's going to happen now and there's nothing I can do at this point. Unless I get lucky and someone else locally is hiring, or my sister gets her damn car fixed so I can get my own back... Hopefully this might finally make her get off her socializing ass and do something about it. Getting sick and fucking tired that everytime she has a free moment she's gotta waste it by partying out with friends without a care in the world. >.>
Which relates to the next irritating topic of the day with my mom(who I REALLY didn't want to talk to today, although it saved me from having to write a painful e-mail about how I got laid-off today). The whole subject about how "I need to make more friends, get out more, blah blah fucking blah", when in all honestly I feel much happier the way I am now than I am trying to be something that I'm not. I like being with people, but I only like being with certain people that unfortunately don't exist anywhere close by. I'm not going to force myself to do things just because you want me to. Just because you have a whole different meaning of it all than I do.
The only reason why I feel lonely, depressed, moody, bitchy, and 50 other things at the moment is because I FUCKING LOST MY JOB. Tough thing to grasp, isn't it?
*sigh* This whole week is gonna be... ugh. I'm sensing more drama and pain. Wednesday MIGHT be an interesting day though.
Needless to say, I lost a job again. The Quiznos I was at finally went belly-up and is having to shut down, something I was afraid was going to happen(either that or whoever was going to buy it might change it to something else, or whatever). I really don't know what's going to happen now and there's nothing I can do at this point. Unless I get lucky and someone else locally is hiring, or my sister gets her damn car fixed so I can get my own back... Hopefully this might finally make her get off her socializing ass and do something about it. Getting sick and fucking tired that everytime she has a free moment she's gotta waste it by partying out with friends without a care in the world. >.>
Which relates to the next irritating topic of the day with my mom(who I REALLY didn't want to talk to today, although it saved me from having to write a painful e-mail about how I got laid-off today). The whole subject about how "I need to make more friends, get out more, blah blah fucking blah", when in all honestly I feel much happier the way I am now than I am trying to be something that I'm not. I like being with people, but I only like being with certain people that unfortunately don't exist anywhere close by. I'm not going to force myself to do things just because you want me to. Just because you have a whole different meaning of it all than I do.
The only reason why I feel lonely, depressed, moody, bitchy, and 50 other things at the moment is because I FUCKING LOST MY JOB. Tough thing to grasp, isn't it?
*sigh* This whole week is gonna be... ugh. I'm sensing more drama and pain. Wednesday MIGHT be an interesting day though.
