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May. 11th, 2007 10:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
grifstar..... nothing like the proverbial "stuck between a rock and a hard place"
Sooooo.... Now my mom has discovered my rebelion plan. Lord knows HOW the store got her celphone, but now they're really starting to creep me out in so many ways(they're almost worse than stalkers >__>;;)..
But basically in a nutshell, she wants me now to GO BACK there and quit the offical way... All I gotta say is Fuck no. Since 1) all three managers scare me to death. There, I finally said it. THATS why I never asked for time off, THATS why it took me well over 2 hours to call in sick one day(though I got braver when they didn't even answer the first 5 times..), THATS why I could never say no to anything.... And if that's bad BEFORE, just how much do you think I want to go there NOW when they're all pissed off?
2) If I DO by some chance make a visit tomorrow afterall, I'm going to have to then work for the next 2 weeks AT LEAST. Which, I never want to work there AGAIN. And it's NOT for the lame excuse of "oh, I just don't feel like it" bullshit, it's the fucking other people I have to corperate with. I DON'T like being isolated and trapped in a little hole in the wall, because nobody else wants the job. I don't like the fact I get snobbish stuck-up attitudes when I ask for help. And finally, I DON'T LIKE BEING THREATENED, PICKED ON, BULLIED, AND HARASSED BECAUSE OF MY WEAKNESSES AND FEARS. Fuck, I've already had at least 5 outbrusts in the breakroom because of some of the things that happened.....
Truth be told, I got a speech inpairment(usually talk too fast and/or stutter sometimes), I get extremely nervous when I get under pressure.... Why don't we combine the two, and add a loud speaker, LET'S SEE WHAT WOULD HAPPEN!! .... If they were going to put me in that damn spot for all eternity they should've asked if THAT WOULD BOTHER ME, NOT TORMENT ME EVERYTIME I DON'T PAGE SOMEONE >___>
and 3) .... eh, it would get in the way with Fanime ._.;
So basically, tomorrow I have either the choice of basically going back for a few more days, or facing an unholied wrathed mother (becuase I was unfortunate to have one that is understanding, positive, and doesn't tear you limb from limb everytime you doing something she doesn't agree with >.>), and get fired... which is what I wanted anyway. Because getting fired IS my only way of actually leaving there, and I don't even care anymore if it makes me look bad (it's not like it happens to hunderds of people everyday >.>;; )
...... I feel sick again, *goes to bed* ._.
Sooooo.... Now my mom has discovered my rebelion plan. Lord knows HOW the store got her celphone, but now they're really starting to creep me out in so many ways(they're almost worse than stalkers >__>;;)..
But basically in a nutshell, she wants me now to GO BACK there and quit the offical way... All I gotta say is Fuck no. Since 1) all three managers scare me to death. There, I finally said it. THATS why I never asked for time off, THATS why it took me well over 2 hours to call in sick one day(though I got braver when they didn't even answer the first 5 times..), THATS why I could never say no to anything.... And if that's bad BEFORE, just how much do you think I want to go there NOW when they're all pissed off?
2) If I DO by some chance make a visit tomorrow afterall, I'm going to have to then work for the next 2 weeks AT LEAST. Which, I never want to work there AGAIN. And it's NOT for the lame excuse of "oh, I just don't feel like it" bullshit, it's the fucking other people I have to corperate with. I DON'T like being isolated and trapped in a little hole in the wall, because nobody else wants the job. I don't like the fact I get snobbish stuck-up attitudes when I ask for help. And finally, I DON'T LIKE BEING THREATENED, PICKED ON, BULLIED, AND HARASSED BECAUSE OF MY WEAKNESSES AND FEARS. Fuck, I've already had at least 5 outbrusts in the breakroom because of some of the things that happened.....
Truth be told, I got a speech inpairment(usually talk too fast and/or stutter sometimes), I get extremely nervous when I get under pressure.... Why don't we combine the two, and add a loud speaker, LET'S SEE WHAT WOULD HAPPEN!! .... If they were going to put me in that damn spot for all eternity they should've asked if THAT WOULD BOTHER ME, NOT TORMENT ME EVERYTIME I DON'T PAGE SOMEONE >___>
and 3) .... eh, it would get in the way with Fanime ._.;
So basically, tomorrow I have either the choice of basically going back for a few more days, or facing an unholied wrathed mother (becuase I was unfortunate to have one that is understanding, positive, and doesn't tear you limb from limb everytime you doing something she doesn't agree with >.>), and get fired... which is what I wanted anyway. Because getting fired IS my only way of actually leaving there, and I don't even care anymore if it makes me look bad (it's not like it happens to hunderds of people everyday >.>;; )
...... I feel sick again, *goes to bed* ._.
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Date: 2007-05-13 03:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-05-13 06:13 am (UTC)Well, it's not like I wanted to just... leave like that in the first place. But then I also have been trying to find a right moment to say it for about, 3-4 months now. If I stayed longer, nothing would happened, nothing would change. So being a little coward about it was my only way of getting out >.>;
Oh well... at least it's all over now ._.
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Date: 2007-05-13 06:16 am (UTC)