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I can't get enough of this song... D:


*points to the current music* >.>;




I had another extremely weird dream last night..... In more than one way >.>; (I seem to be on a roll with these)

I know I wasn't myself. Actually I looked a lot like Culotte(about the same age and everything. And the youngest person in the dream too), only I know for SURE I wasn't him either O_o;;. Still had no idea if I was even a boy or girl either... In fact I think I had a sort of sex change halfway through it >___>;;


ANYWAY, I was going to a sort of film school, wanting to become an actor or something. Like, college level, living in dorms, all that. For a class we all had to work together and produce a movie. Which by the looks of it it was some strange sci-fi movie. Pretty high budgeted too because the effects/sets seen reeeaaaaally top notch. As in something you would see right now.

I totally forget what the movie was supposed to be about, or if it even HAD a point. But at some point I was running extremely late getting to the class. Everyone else was just in the middle of finishing a scene right when I got there.... And I... basically botched the whole thing up for arriving right in the middle of it. And everyone was pissed becuase they now how to do the entire scene all over again (I have no idea WHY, when they could have only just redone the part when I came in and saved the rest..)

Anyway, so now the whole class hated me, I kept saying that I was sorry. It was an accident because I had no idea we were going to start shooting today, all of that. So I had to deal with all of tension for like a day or so. And finally most of the people eventually forgave me... I think "canonly", the class had fun picking on me anyway, because I was the youngest, and all that(since a 10-12 year old verves a bunch of people in thier high teens and 20s? Yeah... >.>;;; ). But I also think I supposed to be one of the better students, or at least generally well liked at the same time.

Several days later, I noticed that there was one girl in particular that STILL would not leave me alone. No matter how much I tried. And ironically enough, she looked JUST LIKE someone I used to know durring middle/elementary school(I don't remember now XD) that used always to give me a hard time. Possibly the only person I might ever count as a true bully to me... >__>;;.

But basically, I knew that she had been doing it ever since I wrecked that scene. But that was like weeks ago, maybe even a month now. Everyone was waaaaaay over it. And also no one even noticed that she was still harrassing me, even though it was completely obivious. One time especially where we were doing something with.. these strange sheets of yellow foam. I could tell that there was someone now and then bopping me in the back of the head with it. Finally turned around and saw she was sitting directly behind me.... And still, didn't stop. To the point I had enough and wacked my own sheet back so she would knock it off. And then got scold at for it D:

FINALLY, I guess I got up to talk to the teacher durring the class about it(which I think he was also like the principal too, or at least had some other important title) when I started noticing that the things she did were getting extra.... Creepier, and was stalking me EVERYWHERE O_o;. So then he decided to openly ask in the from of the class, had she been harrassing me this entire time. And I forget what the exact line was now, but it was basically "no, I haven't done anything like trying to stab them yet"(in a very calm, almost sadistic voice.. Mind you). And then I suddenly felt EXTREMELY scared and worried at that point, and hid behind the teacher guy(I think I might've been crying too). Who also seemed really concerned and protective of me. As well as maybe the whole rest of the class, who had probably moved at feet away from the girl after she said that.

From then on, the teacher said that it would be okay if I stayed around him until everything got settled. And they would be taking care of the girl that was theatening me(probably kickng her out of the school for one thing DX). Untill then I was REALLY terrorifed to be anywhere by myself. Since I knew that she had been always following me before that, and could have been anywhere.

Finaly, I went to go take a shower, though I literally had to be escorted by like two other people(and the teacher) just to feel safe enough. I got in, and about 5 minutes afterwards, I saw that someone was picking the lock on the door open O-O;;;. So I quickly got out, wrapped self in a towel and tried to keep the door shut... But it was too late, and sure enough, it was her D:

I was beyond freaking out by now... I don't really remember what we were talking about anymore. Other than I was trying to understand WHY she was doing this. And what did I have to do so that she'll leave me alone.

First request: Show her myself, as an act of "trust" (afterall, I was only wearing a towel at the time... >.>;)........ WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?!?!?!?!?! <-- in a nutshell, my response. Along with something like "why the heck for!?!"

She basically threaten to never leave me alone if I didn't do it. And finally, a said I would do it... Though it took a LOT to talk me into it. But before I did, I still want to know why was she doing all of this. Why did she constantly pick me, stalked me, threaten to hurt/kill me, everything. And then she got reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally close, and stroked under my chin, "because, that's exactly the way I express my love".

And from that line alone, I realised she had a "crush" on me ever since I got into that class.. curse my adorable ten year transvestite boi appearance D:. And then I woke up... and quite creeped out.

................. I NEVER felt so uke before in a dream before like THAT DX... and so dirty... *wbbles* ;-;

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I-it's kind of amusing. =D;;;;